Bridgeport Mentality

The Reader

Yuck. I get depressed when I read this blog. I have gotten more emotional and wiser in the last few years. I've been hurt. I've grown up. I've become a terrible writer. 

I saw the Reader last night. I didn't realize that it was going to be about the Holocaust. I think I must've heard about Revolutionary Road and mixed them up. 

I loved it. I loved David Kross and am a bit perturbed that he is only 18. Makes me feel old and perverse. I knew he was a Cancer as soon as I saw his face in the movie. Kate Winslet was great and the unlikely love quickly became believable to me. I just read as much as I could find on Kross (nothing!) and saw that he learned English to play the part! That is incredible! He was well-spoken and expressive and clearly Oscar-worthy himself.

Now, I am going to write a song called "Kristy Dreams of Crepes" to rival Broken Social Scene's Ibi Dreams of Pavement.

Laughing

I'm laughing at my last post where I say that the budget is unlimited. October seems like a world away from today.

California Dreamin'

I am going to LA in less than two weeks. I'm flying into LAX, then staying in B. HIlls and Woodland Hills. What do we think? Fun things going to happen? Ideas? The budget is currently unlimited.

I Hate YouTube.

Am I the only person in the world who hates YouTube? My younger brother (21) is so disracted by this effing site, that whenever we are chatting online, he interjects with a YouTube link. This tells me two things:

1) I know that IM chatting is informal, but my brother must be so disinterested in what I am saying that he has to watch a YouTube video while I am asking him about school. A British advertisement or older lady dancing to a rap song is far more important than me.
And 2) The person posting the YouTube link on their blog, myspace profile, or as a link in an IM or e-mail is PROVING to me that they spend a lot of time on YouTube looking for videos that they think I would like. Thanks, but I do just fine rotting my brain with my own tools on my own time.

I'd like undivided attention during our weekly five-minute chat. Curiosity never gets the best of me, and I have never clicked your YouTube link. I have never seen anything educational - let me take that back - I've never seen anything that's even been a step above PURE SMUT on YouTube. Read a book.

Self-Improvement Project: Take One

1. Drink only water and coffee. 16 oz of coffee in the morning and water ONLY throughout the rest of the day. Absolutely no exceptions.

2. Do not listen to any sick, sad music.

That's all for now. Let's see if I can do it.

Macbook

So, I have a new publisher program on my new Macbook called iWeb (what else would it be called?) that helps me create blogs. It is kind of pointless since you need a .Mac account to post to your .Mac site in order to utilize it fully.

Anyway, I am unsure as to whether or not I like my new computer. It is almost exactly like my old iBook even though my iBook is four years old - which is kind of daunting, since I was expecting an all new and updated Apple experience. I would like to think that there would have been more upgrades and features.

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This is sick

But I was thinking that if I were to plan on having a kid - I mean really plan and think it through (which is duhhhhhh ideal anyway) - I would try to pick the kid's sign. Yep, it's wrong, but I don't care. My mom is perfect for me. She's a Leo and I think it has a lot to do w/ my positive upbringing. Only more recently has she become more critical and negative, but I think it has to do w/ the fact that she worries about me & her ascending sign is Scorpio. I'm not going to really talk about my dad being a Gem cuz most of you already know how I feel about Gems in general. I will say, however, that air feeds fire and I can see how that works in the context of our relationship. So, here's my breakdown by sign regarding my opening sentence:

Aries - nah, i'd miss them too much when they're travelling.
Taurus - absolutely not
Gemini - no way. especially not a male
Cancer - no way. they'd either hate me or love me and I cant' deal with that
Leo - surely even though they'd have to be the center of attention at all times.
Virgo - no. too negative and critical for me.
Libra - top choice for sure
Scorpio - no
Sagittarius - of course
Capricorn - top pick of the earth signs
Aquarius - Yes. I just love air signs. I can't help it.
Pisces - natural enemy. no way.

I think the best combo would be a Libra male child and an Aquarius female child. I don't think I could handle having a Libra female who is a materialist.


anyway, I also did my chart on another site (astro.com) and it said my ascending sign is Scorpio. I was born @ 5:27AM and I would have had to have been born a couple hours later or earlier in order to have ascending Sag or Libra. So long story short, the explanation I read on astro about ascending Scorpio is much more like me than I had originally had read in Jeff Prince's report. I think that living w/ two Scorps bring out the Scorp in me a lot, too.

Year in Review

(1) What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
+ graduated from a university with a Bachelor of Arts degree

(2) Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
+ Yes. I have been poignantly optimistic most of this year.

(3) What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
+Some sort of roughly outlined life plan. I’m working on that now.

(4) Where did you travel?
+ Arizona
+


(5) What dates from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory?
+ June 25
+ September 30

(6) What was your biggest achievement of the year?
+ Ending a toxic relationship for good

(7) What was your biggest failure?
+ Working at this awful establishment & not leaving when I had the opportunity.

(8) Did you suffer from illnesses or injuries?
+ Fortunately not

(9) What was the best thing you bought?
+ I didn’t buy anything worthwhile this year except a plane ticket.

(10) Where did most of your money go?
+ to pay for my


(11) What did you get really, really, really excited about?
+ Namely the White Sox

(12) What song will always remind you of 2006?
+ Dakota by the Stereophonics. :(

(13) What album(s) will always remind you of 2006?
+I can’t come up with one.

(14) Compared to this time last year, are you:

a) Happier or sadder? I do not remember how I felt this time last year, but I know I was on Christmas vacation from college, so it was probably damn good. I’ll pass.
b) Thinner or fatter? Thinner, I think
c) Richer or poorer? Surely poorer; no more student loan money

(15) What do you wish you'd done more of?

+ Traveling

(16) What do you wish you'd done less of?
+


(17) How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
+ I’m unsure.

(18) Did you fall in love in 2006?
+ Yes. With life.

(19) What was your favorite TV program?
+ House Hunters on HGTV

(20) Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
+ I don’t hate

(21) What was the best book you read?
+

(22) What was your favorite film of this year?
+


(23) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
+ I was 23. I cried and drank Bud Light alone part of the night, then sat on my front porch with my lovely boyfriend and best friend and we drank whiskey & diet Dr. Pepper

(24) What one thing would have made your year measurably more satisfying?
+ Cold, hard cash

(25) How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
+ Comfortable. Or should I say, casual?


(26) What kept you sane?
+ My mother. She has also driven me to the brink of insanity several times.

(27) What is one thing you've learned this year?
+ If you display that you are truly happy, people will be happy with you.

I haven't been around in a while. I actually came on here to make a list of pet peeves. I'm sure I will just add to it as time goes on...

1. time left on the microwave. is it so difficult to hit "clear" when you're done heating your sloppy joes?

2. girls who wear too much make-up. blush is supposed to be subtle. did you know that i saw you the other day at the dominick's on ashland with your mother? you weren't wearing make-up and you looked so much better than how you look on weekday mornings with garbage plastered all over your cheeks. get a clue.

3. extremely crowded bars where i feel old; i am only 23. i should not feel old in any drinking establishment.

4. unsolicited advice. especially when it comes from someone who has no room to talk. with the risk of sounding extremely cliche, i must say that everyone is different. do not criticize someone for their choices merely because you wouldn't have handled a situation the same way.

5. people who feel that they need to surround themselves with many other people - most of the time this includes shallow people who do not give a shit about said person to begin with. i don't have many friends, but i like it that way. i dont want to spend a lot of time keeping up with dozens of friends' lives. i have a hard enough time keeping up with the handful of friends i have.

6. this stems from the immediate above blurb - holding onto friendships that are obviously dead. why try to repair a relationship for the billionth time? shouldn't a person just go out and make a new friend with all that energy? hopefully a friend who is going to treat you much more appropriately than previous "dead" friend.

7. chauvinism.

8. to be continued

More OKCupid Stuff

In honor of the election tomorrow:

You are a Social Liberal (80% permissive) and an... Economic Liberal (18% permissive) You are best described as a: Socialist Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

I'm Such a Good Girl. This Isn't Fair.

I'm not sure that I like OKCUPID anymore. I mean, every time I take their main "okcupid test" I get a different score. The first time I took it, I got "the Intern" and now it says that she is my exact opposite.

So, here I am.

The Sudden Departure Random Brutal Love Master (RBLMf) Sweet. Dear. Loving. At Gate 18. Final call. You are The Sudden Departure. You've been in a lot of serious relationships. More than a few have ended ugly. Uglily. Whatever. Our guess is that you're a really fantastic girl who doesn't really know what she wants, and you've broken a few hearts as a result. You fall for people easily, and you enjoy the feeling of falling in love, but once you're there, either boredom or the old "grass is greener" syndrome sets in. The mind wanders, and with it goes the flesh. And then the toiletries. Your exact opposite: The Intern Deliberate Gentle Sex Dreamer We know you're not the classic "love 'em and leave 'em" type, at least not in a purely sexual sense. You have too many serious bonding tendencies for that. But even though you're theoretically looking to settle down, you don't settle long on one person. "Serial monogamist" is probably something you hear a lot. "Emotionally loose" is another way to put it. To the poor guys eating your dust and sniffing your panties, it doesn't really make much difference. Of course, it's not really your fault that people get hurt. You have every right to move on when you choose. ALWAYS AVOID: The Backrubber, The Gentleman CONSIDER: The Vapor Trail, someone just like you

I stole this off Craigslist MC's. I don't know if it's original. Maybe someone can tell me if they have seen it somewhere else. I kind of like it. Kind of idiotic, but cute. I corrected the spelling/grammar/punctuation mistakes and reformatted to suit my tastes.

Only blue skies and green grass would keep you in my grip
but surely time will tell
if false smiles and vivid love arewhat caused you to slip

Slip away
I don't say you could not possibly know the time
I'm late again, my friend, and you always say, "I'm fine"

But you're not
Why lie?
It's easy to see
I just only wish you could tell me.

The things you think when you stare in to my eyes
Is it me that you despise?

Shot down from the sky
cold and worried
waiting to die

Lots of changes going on in my life lately. Mix that up in a shaker with a lack of Internet for nearly two weeks and you find yourself without an update.

I started posting this blog with a lot to say, but now I realize that I don't really have anything that isn't too personal to share with the world. Let's just say that I am really happy.

So, on that note: see ya!

Blogger is having a "scheduled outage" at 4PM apparently.

The Sox need to win.

I turned my heat on this morning because it was freezing. What the fuck? I thought it was supposed to still be summer.

I scored some sweet Sox tickets for Thursday. Oh yes. Gosh.

My apartment is totally unliveable at the moment and I don't see how it will be ready for us to move in on Saturday.

I have a taste for some Cabernet Sauvignon. Which reminds me of a quote from Shopgirl with the burgundy wine @ the nice restaurant. Whatever.

I have a lot more to say, but my horoscope said I should keep it to myself for today. Let's see if that's possible.